A month into being 30 and nothing much has changed. Let’s be honest it never really does, does it? I still don’t feel 29, never mind at the start of a whole new decade of my life. The world is still a mess and my little head is still a confused mash up of memories and anxieties. What better time to do a bit of reflecting on the past decade and putting some intentions out into the universe for the next decade.
Grief is hard. The hardest thing I have ever experienced. It has broken me into a million tiny pieces and evolves every day. It has taught me how resilient I am though. There have been a few times (more than I’d like to admit) that I thought about giving up but each time something inside pushed me to keep going. I’m stronger than I ever knew I could be and the fact I’m standing again now, I know I can do anything I put my mind to.
Angela Scanlon has an amazing podcast Thanks A Million that has been a real eyeopener in the importance of recognising gratitude. With all the grey clouds that have been hanging around recently, looking for a bit of positivity doesn’t seem like the worst idea.
I couldn’t be more grateful for my mum. She gave me the best start in life and filled my heart full of so much love. That might sound cheesy but it is true.
My family is the rock I have never fully appreciated. Both blood and chosen people, my journey so far would have been a hell of a lot harder and lacking so much fun without them.
Learn, grow and create. This might sound vague but I want to try new things and push myself a little bit further every day. One big stumbling block in trying to put myself back together has revolved around not knowing who I am anymore or what path I should be on. Rather than making the old options fit, why not explore new possibilities?
My biggest plan for the future is to stop procrastinating with making plans and lists and start acting. Filling my life with adventures and creations.
If anyone has any must do recommendations for life, please let me know! Otherwise, please feel free to tag along for the journey!